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Wow — my nest is empty again and I am fine with it.

It is strange how you can get used to things and adapt to change. 8 months ago I would not have believed that I would be alright and that I would be happy to wave them off for another term. But I am really fine. I have 12 weeks ahead of me with an empty nest and I am fine with it. They are both really happy to be back studying again and so I am feeling really happy with the situation. Lock down has been hard…

Wow — it’s a couple of months since I last posted. The lock down has meant that we have been staying at home and staying safe. Two of my babies have been at home and we have been marooned within our four walls together. I have been working hard and that has helped keep me sane.

The most positive thing to happen within these last few weeks is the light at the end of the tunnel in the Vaccine roll out. What a great achievement that is. It is definitely helping to ease my anxiety and I am feeling a…

Wow — it’s a while since I last posted and we are now into 2021. Things have been very anxiety provoking over the last couple of months with Christmas in the middle. The pandemic continues to ravage through our lives and the onset of winter and the new variant has made the spread so much worse.

My oldest baby didn’t make it home for Christmas due to the pandemic restrictions, so it was a strange celebration. We are getting used to that now. Everything in the last 10 months has been a bit more muted than normal. My middle and…

Wow — the weeks seem to be going past so quick now. It is a really busy time for me at work which means I don’t have so much time to dwell on my empty nest. Christmas is also approaching rapidly and the shopping that goes with the festive period is taking up a lot of my time.

I have eventually got back on the exercise bike. I know it is so good for me and I feel so much better after a 5 mile cycle but I really have to force myself to do it. I wish I could…

Wow — I didn’t post last week as I was busy enjoying my nest being two thirds full. It was a lovely week, apart from the weather. Days out were curtailed due to the rain but we managed to spend quality family time together. It was so nice to see them and I loved all the cooking and being mother hen once again. It was lovely to see the washing basket full again.

It is now week 9 and I am back with an empty nest. I feel ok actually. It feels like I have been topped up and it…

Wow — that week passed quickly. Maybe that is a good sign, maybe I am getting used to my new life…a little bit anyway. It was helped by the excitement of seeing my babies at the end of the week.

I have taken next week off work, an annual leave week, so this week has been so busy with getting everything sorted. Being busy obviously helps with coping with an empty nest but doing nothing but work every day does not help with the work / life balance. I am continuing to think hard about my future work plans and…

Wow — Six weeks down. It has been an ok week. The night at the coast was lovely. Watching the waves and sitting in the sun. The weather was wonderful …someone was definitely looking down on me. It was nice to have a change of scenery. There was a moment on the beach though when I really did miss my babies…they are usually there with me and I felt a massive surge of loneliness. This is going to take me such a long time to get used to.

Started to autumn clean the empty bedrooms — a difficult task and…

Wow — another week has passed. I am feeling slightly better. Nothing has really changed except for maybe a shift in my hormones. I know they have a huge impact on my life at the moment and at times can be over whelming. I am hoping to get more advice on this soon but trying to see a doctor in these difficult times is hard. It is a cruel twist that all these things seem to be happening at the same time in my life. I am not sure how women survive their fifties! …

Wow — I have survived 4 weeks. I am posting this blog a day late. It has been a hard week.

After a reasonably optimistic and positive third week, I have slipped back this week. I am feeling really low and really need to see my babies. Sometimes my arms feel so empty and a teddy is just not the same. I don’t really know what has triggered this downfall in my mood this week, maybe reality has set in and I am having to accept a bit more, that this is my life now. This is something that is…

Wow — two weeks have come and gone — I am now into my third week — how have I managed to get through them? Did I actually smile and laugh once this week? Is it getting slightly easier? Did I actually manage to go one whole day without constantly looking at my phone to see if there was a call or text?

I think maybe I did. The mindfulness meditations are helping. I feel it is a tool to help me relax when the anxiety starts to rush in. Little things still make it hard for me — the…

Rachel

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